Monday, October 5, 2009

CHAPTER SIXTEEN: THE JAGUAR

The dreamtime prophecy was fulfilled. The sagacity of its wisdom, the enormous power of its metaphor, knitted itself in my thoughts and produced an intimate understanding that exploded suddenly before me. Imperious, like the raving tumult of the hurricane, the dream had foretold the future. Hornsby had found his immortality within the Soul Chamber, and I was given its enlightening meaning, which was overshadowed by the sight of my companion and mentor being electrocuted into oblivion.

An awful appalling hollowness gripped my gut. As I made my way through the storming jungle, on hands and knees, crawling at times, running and just trying to fly away, Hornsby’s face in that hopelessly blank moment before the lightning struck haunted me. I staggered and cried trying to dispel the vivid memory of his death, as he looked at me with glaring and enlarged eyes, answering to me in a resolute fleeting look.

“He knew, he knew,” I cried out against the howling winds. “The bastard knew he was going to die.”

I anguished like a man defeated in battle. The gash over my head streamed blood down my face, stained with the rain. My hair tousled, the disorder of my clothes and the aspect of Hornsby’s death made me a frenzied possessed spectacle.

Exasperated in the clutches of the hurricane’s alley, I was wrung out with an utter loneliness; homesickness and then a premonition stole over me. I sensed I was not alone. Searching about the jungle the fierceness and rapidity of a gleaming black object moving amidst the tropical forest growth instinctually made me feel imminent danger. I glared amazed as it was overtaken by my presence as well.

Its yellow black slit eyes were no farther than five meters from me. Between us was a fallen tree, offering a momentary projection for me to make an escape. The panting Jaguar crouched down in a black heap, its claws digging into the earth to strike with its full force. I was disarmed having left my machete at the top of the temple. My bare hands were my only protection. In an instant, I was sure I would be devoured and consumed as its predator eyes fixed on me.
“Leave me alone, go away,” I cried out in defiance.

The boiling commotion of the hurricane seemed to subside into the background for a moment. The Jaguar and I were locked in a scrimmage of out witting each other’s fear. The Jaguar growled with a horrendous guttural threat back at me. I could see his body tighten, his great paws were flattening out, preparing to make its leap.

Maybe it would be my chance to turn and scramble in a blind panic. But the Jaguar would be about my throat before I had even flinched a muscle. If I fell on my knees and pleaded for mercy, he might be offended with the excess of my fear and see the worthlessness of the blood lust kill.

The struggle would be over soon enough I assured myself. A strange eloquent admiration of being killed by the savage brute force penetrated me. But then the Jaguar’s eyes widen staring beyond my shoulder at some obscure shape. I didn’t see what it was at first, but only heard a rhythmic song being sung amid the fury of the hurricane.

Jujuntsit in jitik in wok jujuntsit in jitik in k’ab tan u pek in nej tin wu’uyaj u tar a k’ay ch’iknach netak in wenen tin kashtai u pachtakih che?”

The Jaguar snarled, flashing its white fangs in cursed defiance. I stood frozen not wanting to turn away for fear the jaguar would pounce on me. What was behind me or what was being sung above the roar of the hurricane’s force put fear into beast’s eyes, causing it a sudden reversion of its fury to attack me. Slowly the Jaguar stepped backwards, without taking its eyes off of the object.

Oken tin wenen yokor jenen che? Tu yek’er in nok’ tu yek’er in k’ab tu yek’er in shikin.”

The voice reached higher tones, loudly singing. The jet-black Jaguar snarled again as if complaining of being deprived its prey and made a quick leap off into the jungle.

In an outbreak of impulsive avowal I yelled, “I scared it off,” jumping up in deranged delight.
Even though the hurricane was at its fullest strength, I dismissed it as nothing to be concerned about. The Jaguar’s threat surpassed the hurricanes wrath. The beast’s prey had escaped. Turning around I was dumbfound to see the white tunic clad Moise standing on the trunk of a huge mangrove tree, smiling.

The wind tossed his long black hair about his face, but his close-set eyes peered at me. A bolt of lightning struck above us, exploding into a bluish flame and raining down fiery sparks upon my head forcing me duck for cover. Deafening thunder rolled over me. I was footsore and exhausted. If but for a moment he appeared to sing a song of protection from the Jaguar on my behalf, in the next moment Moise vanished.

I rushed to where he had been. From the corner of my eye I saw a figure moving quickly through the brush. It stumbled, fell and regain its self. Thinking it was Moise; I ran stumbling over more fallen debris. When I finally came around the trunk of tree to confront him, I was met with a surprise.

Senor Jules, que pasa!” It was Cristobal coming face to face with me.

“Cristobal!” I cried, hugging him. “You’re alive!”

“Donde está, Don Hornsby?” Cristobal asked.

“Muerto,” I answered not knowing how to convey the tragedy.

“Huracan,” Cristobal said seeming to understand the circumstances.

“Si.”

“Tigre.”

“Saber.”

Sequir, mi,”

The two of us took off toward the refugee camp. Cristobal still had his machete so he carved a path for us, dodging falling branches along the way. I staggered over rocks, branches, trying to keep up with Cristobal, feeling a remorse for Hornsby’s death.

There was no place to find shelter, so we moved on the best we could. I noticed that Cristobal’s white shirt was blood stained about his left shoulder. He had winged by a bullet from the helicopter’s gunner. Looking worse for wear, his spirit was vibrant and serene. Having found him, my spirit was rejuvenated. The rest of the day was spent foraging our way in a southerly direction, through the carnage of the hurricane. By late afternoon the hurricane had subsided into a tropical rainstorm eventually dying out completely.

When night fell I stoically observed the sky; a brilliant celestial heaven so crystal clear I felt I could have reached out and touched the stars. The Milky Way filled the sky like a stellar cloud. The constellation’s Orion and the Southern Cross were visible, among the grand spectacle of the Milky Way. The twinkling light carried me into deep reflection.

What Hornsby was telling me about Quetzalcoatl and the importance of being an artist in your spiritual life, caused me to wonder if there was really a time upon this earth when all things were not in a chaotic condition? When the world was shared in tranquility, no harm and no untimely ending to one’s existence. Was there a time when a stable manifestation of naturalness was the only action taken? Could this time, if it ever existed, be the future of our world, when the end of this Tun Mayan calendar cycle comes to an end?

Such is the magic of the universe’s method, directed by the ultimate mastermind that conducts with precise regularity that which out strips man-made technology. Nothing could be more powerful, essentially divine than the creative order of this universe, that we have a privilege to exist in.

As I continued to gaze at the celestial heavens above me, Cristobal prayed, evoking the protection of some Nican Tlaca deities. In his own way, Cristobal was ritualizing a velorio or wake ceremonial service for Hornsby’s spirit. He brought the simple prayer service to a climax by dancing and singing to himself. I was too exhausted to participate, curling up into a fetal position to stay warm and dozed off.

The next morning we started out at daybreak, swiftly covering the jungle terrain to arrive at the refugee camp. The ravages of the hurricane became more apparent as we made our way. The upheaval of trees, plants and corpses of wildlife littered the landscape. I questioned Cristobal whether we were on the right track, since we had no compass to navigate by. He calmly reassured me answering that if he could find me he could find the refugee camp.

During the time we spent hiking towards the Rio San Pedro thoughts turned in my mind, maybe needlessly in exaggerated fashions. The restlessness of humankind seemed to be erroneously out of sync with the universe’s consciousness. I had become aware of my sensory acuteness since living in the jungle, which was something that technological inducements of a modern world never accomplished.

Given the discovery of the Soul Chamber, I had learned one thing: That man has not been progressing in accordance to universal principles. Instead, what has been manifested is a disastrous feedback loop only perpetuates artificial extensions of a gross unthinking paradigm that is deadening our senses. This keeps us in a mental paralysis, unable to connect to the psychic resonance between organism and energy.

If the origin of consciousness is the connection to the universe, which gives us the higher state of pleasure since we live in harmony of the energy of intelligence, than our development of a democratic industrialized hierarchy is an obstruction to the purity of this natural experience. This is what drove my inner contradictions, as I was experiencing an imperceptible shifting within my own psyche prior to embarking on this expedition.

Hornsby, in the final moments before his death said the earth contained nodal points that were moved by the tectonic plates. These points were sacred to those who understood the true nature of human existence upon this planet. The Mayan temples were constructed as markers of these electromagnetic power spots that emitted pulsations to keep the planetary grid in balance.

Even though our current modernized society believes that the way we are is because we made it so, in reality, we are enslaved in the final hurricane gesticulation of this planets evolution and the cosmos. Economic and political order of the last cycle of the Mayan calendar known as the Twelfth Baktun is disintegrating, as the failures of its infrastructure must give way to the inseparable relationship between the next consciousness and its cosmic nature. The more human conflict there is among nations, the greater the suffering of the planet, the harder to remain connected to our divine purpose. I feared there would be more cataclysmic events as political leaders demand war to make peace.

Hornsby believed that the Tzolk’in matrix is the key for us to understand and to adhere to our salvation. Hornsby’s aberration, his extravagance to live on the edges of human consciousness, was his genius that served the progress of the world. Judged and scorned for his passionate indulgence in the common passion to know what lies behind our moral intentions, Hornsby found the Soul Chamber as a spiritual warrior and revolutionary against the enormous human ignorance.

He claimed that we didn’t understand the true use of technology as a means to extend the completion of the larger matrix circuit of nature; instead we used this evolutionary energy grid to create a dissonance reality of degenerative static that suppresses the empowerment of consciousness.

In time, Hornsby said, there would be warriors breaking down the dominant powers of the mechanistically contrived paradigm that built the occidental civilization, and instead bring a real prosperity and peace to this earth. He had spoken these words to me in the Soul Chamber as if they were written in fire upon the hieroglyphs. He had told me that the Tzolk’in round cycle will bring an end and new beginning.

“We will come out of the rainy period, the period of barbarism and into the investiture of a time of clear skies. This will herald the coming of the solar deity, Hunahpu, the Ultimate Being of the Universe,” I recalled his words.

The existence of the Soul Chamber was the Holy Grail, proof of our origin of consciousness: The common genesis of human existence and divine countenance.

“There are events coming in our future that bring us to our ancestor’s past,” I thought to myself as I trudged along through the jungle’s overgrowth.

There were few signs of the refugee camp. I did discover the stone campfire hearth as a reference point but other traces had been washed away from the hurricane’s fury. I surmised that Cassarina, Dr. St. Germain and the others had broke camp before the hurricane arrived otherwise there would have been tracks, a well-defined trail. Or had they fled a patrolling “death squad” or worse yet had been captured prior to the hurricane’s arrival.

As we surveyed the area, a billowy white thundercloud passed over the sun. Its shadow fell across me causing me to recall the frightful phenomenon of the storm, Hornsby’s death and the abstraction of the Soul Chamber’s enlightenment of the Final Day’s remarkable liberation.
Wondering through the brush I found the remains of the clinic structure that had been torn down by the wind, its cane walls scattered like splintered toothpicks. The whole ordeal of the expedition felt pitiful as my hope of seeing Cassarina again was dashed.

Searching further, I found the grave of the Mayan woman we had buried days before, the stone markers still in place. But where had Cassarina gone? My eyes welled up with tears, as I despaired by the gravesite. What would I do if Cassarina were dead? The dismay drowned my heart. I crumbled upon the rotting soil of the marshy lowland jungle. The discovery of Soul Chamber and what it contained was overshadowed by the death of Dr. Hornsby. I wavered between the events unable to make sense of it.

Cristobal called out to me in the tone of a heart uplifted in some tender admiration of life’s miraculous moments.

“Senor Jules,” he called out to me coming through the jungle brush.
With the reins of the bridle in his hand he lead one or our horses, a bit worse for wear that miraculously had survived the river and hurricane. The saddle and my backpack were dangling on one side of the horse’s torso.

Renewed in spirit, I quickly ran to him and the horse. Unlashing my backpack, I dumped out the contents, spilling the water soaked items out on the ground. Rummaging through it, I found the film cassettes were still dry, protected by the plastic canisters renewing hope that I could expose the death squad massacre at Father Hernandez’ mission.

My journals were soaked through, but what was foremost in my mind was something I had given little credence before; The Anahuac Mythology book that Father Hernandez had given me. Once I put my hands on it, I sat down, crossed legged and gripped it in my hands as a priceless treasure.

Anahuac,” I thought. The word resonated within me. It loomed up off the book cover, embracing me as if it was trying to tell me something.

Que es?” Cristobal asked me.

He stood by the horse; the two of them seemed to be anxiously waiting for me as I glanced over at them.

“Right,” I muttered, realizing that this was no time to dwell in my intuitive musing.

I collected the things I had dumped out on the ground and put them back in my pack, including the book. Cristobal had re-secured the saddle on the horse, so I lashed my pack to the saddle horn, just as it was prior to crossing the Rio San Pedro days before.

El Ceibo, the closest village, was across the Guatemalan/Mexico border where food and rest could be provided to us. We’d have to cross the Rio Usumacinta again, but I was seasoned to the perils that lay ahead. As I turned my thoughts upon the prospect of returning to Mexico, it hit me.

“The Hotel Anahuac in San Cristobal de los Casas would be the place that Cassarina would go,” I thought.

“Vamos,” I shouted to Cristobal and grabbed the horse reins, headed at a brisk pace toward the west.


The End

CHAPTER FIFTEEN: SOUL CHAMBER

The jungle canopy was so thick that I could hardly catch a glimpse of the hillside terrain. Most of the time I was walking with my head down, hacking away at the endless shrub brush in what felt like a timeless stupor. All the while I remained alert to not plant my foot on some poisonous snake or worse yet, stepping into a bottomless cenote.

We were in some of the most densely overgrown jungle of the Mayab Forest. After a time, I started to hack and clawed my way up against a seemingly endless embankment. The light rain turned into a deluge.


While pulling myself up on hanging vines while digging my feet into the slippery mud my foot landed on something solid. Sensing a flat rock base beneath my foot, I set my weight down to test it. It held my weight. I perceived I must be on a ledge of some sort. The physical appearance of the ground underneath me started to take on a terraced appearance. Through the thick underbrush and muddy soil, I noticed a smoothed out rectangular shape, resembling large stone blocks delineated by thin straight cracks laid at a tiered ninety-degree angle.


A huge underground tree root disarticulated a portion of the mason-type setting. I chopped at the jungle underbrush while pulling on the tangled vines in front of me, to see what lay behind them. The water pooled about my feet, flowing towards the hillside, disappearing into a dark void behind the dense foliage. All the while, Hornsby kept yelling to me.


“Jules, come quickly.”

I abandoned my curiosity and groped my way toward him, who had climbed much further ahead of me. The hurricane, in the meantime, unleashed its fury upon me.

Arriving at the top of the incline, the wind and rain stung my face like a sandstorm. Tree branches flew about me. But in the blur of the storm’s rage, I saw a spectacular sight. The top was leveled off to a form a large square plateau. Shrubs and tangled vines encased the stone ruin. Near each corner of the terrace were the remains of a large elaborately sculptured stone. A two-storied main edifice occupied the center.

The temple had more character of any structure I had seen before in Mayan photographs or illustrations. Some trees had sprouted taking hold in the plateau court-yard making gapping crevices in the cut stone surface from their roots. At the top of the main edifice a circular stone column about four meters high and one meter thick was sculpted in bold relief, much like the ones we had seen in the cryptic vault. It was made of red stone. This was the menhir that Hornsby had been calling out to me.

“Over here, Jules,” Hornsby called out to me through the howling wind. “We’ve found Yaxkin.”

I saw him standing in the small entrance to the center edifice, protected from the storm’s fury. He had cut away the shrub and vines exposing a lintel over the doorway of a chief with an enormous feathered plum for a headdress, gripping a two-headed snake in one hand and a wand in the other. I made my way across the plateau, fighting the force of the wind and rain by protection from huge stone cisterns that were placed in a crisscross pattern on the temple’s mesa.

Reaching Hornsby, he pulled me inside the circular shaped structure.

“Welcome to the Soul Chamber.” Hornsby proudly proclaimed.
I was astonished at the grand appearance. Its diameter was about three to four meters. The imposing interior was a complicated array of elegant colored glyphs carved in stone blocks. Huge timbers crisscrossed in an upward spiral fashion as if it was the frame of a stairway, having decayed over centuries of time. Water trickled down the circular wall from above, where daylight filtered through, but little rain. We had found a safe refuge from the hurricane.

“Look at this, Jules,” Hornsby said. “Every stone is an emblem glyph, some of which must be PreClassic.”

I looked closely at the wall to see that this was an elaborately designed tower; each stone had been painstakingly sculpted and then placed in a matrix format. It was the finest example of Mayan architecture. Within the walls were four large stone glyphs that represented the four points on the compass. These were just above the height of our heads.

“My god, Jules, some of these glyphs… they look like Caucasian men. And here . . . some have Assyrian features.” Hornsby said as he quickly moved about electrified by his discovery. “Over here . . . these depict African features.”

Then he discovered in vertical rows the glyphs from the Chol Quij, the count of day’s glyphs. Hornsby, oblivious to the ragging hurricane outside, ran to the entrance peering out at the lintel above doorway. The storm whipped at him. I jumped and grabbed his shirt sensing he would be sucked out.

“It’s Quetzalcoatl,” Hornsby cried out, ducking back into the tower. “We must get to the top, to the stele,” Hornsby commanded.

“But the storm,” I protested. I insisted we wait out the hurricane before venturing up the decayed timbers. Looking up toward the ceiling of the tower and hearing the violent wind outside Hornsby thought my advice was practical enough and went about deciphering the glyphs.

The force of the hurricane sounded like a hundred locomotives bearing down on us, swirling wind into the tower, but still the thick stone edifice offered protection.

“Absolute shame we don’t have anything to record these with,” Hornsby said absent-mindedly as he ran his fingers across the relief faces of the glyphs.
I hunched down against the wall, hoping to protect myself from any flying debris that might come crashing down on us. Lightning flashed. Thunder roared. Hornsby gasped.

“James, sit down and wait,” I demanded. He sensed the furious storm outside and took a seat on the wet stone floor.

“Something’s missing here,” Hornsby quipped.
“What?” I inquired.

“Notice the stones here, they are smooth and clean. Rain didn’t wash these off. There were would be residue of dirt left by centuries of vacancy. Doesn’t it seem odd to you, Jules?”

I ran my hand over the surface. No evidence of grime or caked dirt. Even the crevices of the sculpted glyphs were clean. They had a polished texture to it. Each stone was about ten centimeters square with a metallic surface of crystalline specks.

“This looks like platinum or something like it. And here, this one looks like its made of gold, another is jade, and this one is silver, and this one’s mineralogy is crystal,” Hornsby said closely inspecting the wall.

“Maybe it’s designed to keep a high magnetic void?” I hypothesized.

“But this one stone is very strange.”

As the cyclone thrashed the jungle outside, we kept our focus on the discovery of a lifetime. I moved next to Hornsby to take a closer look.

“It has a dense metallic structure but the surface feels like sandpaper.”

“A meteorite?”

“Jules, that’s it,” Hornsby replied in deep thought.

Hornsby speculated that the Nahua or Mayans had quarried meteorite stones from somewhere. Searching the wall for an answer the most likely location dawned on him.

Zona del Silencio, of course,” Hornsby snapped in the blink of an eye.

It was a place in Northern Mexico, in the Chihuahua Desert that attracted meteorites on a regular basis including misguided missiles fired from America. The local Mexican’s call it the place of “falling pebbles.”
There was an area discovered by a Mexican oil explorer, Harry de la Pena. He plotted an equal sided triangle, three by three by three kilometers, using the static interference on his radio as a means to track the outlying border. It was where the Allende Meteorite landed in 1969.

There are two points in the celestial sky called the celestial equator and the ecliptic equator. The plane of the solar system defines these two great circles in which the two cross each other at two points on the horizon: The vernal equinox or spring and the autumnal equinox or fall. It is the same coordinate system that lies upon the lithographical crust of the earth.

There are these paths across the landscape, magnetic forces that have path shifts, probably caused by cosmic catastrophes such as supernovas hundreds of thousands of light years away.

Indigenous people knew of these magnetic alignments using them to survey the layout of their cities and temples over vast distances. But to the priestly hierarchies consternation and social control, the shifts that came about caused tribal encounters that turn into warfare. This was all about keeping control of the sacred alignments.

“So if these alignments existed, then the plotting of the temples in Mesoamerica was mapped out on a magnetic grid with specific nodal points, such as with the four points of the compass.” The two of us were in utter fascination.

“And the center, the Yaxkin, the Kuxan Suum or road to the heavens,” Hornsby added, “is this Octonun or stone stele above us. It is the Zuhuy tun, the virgin rock.”

Seated next to me, he continued to investigate each of the glyph stones that lined the walls, recognizing that the whole interior was the Tzolk’in or Chol Quij.
Hornsby told me at the crux of the issue is the control part.

“Issue?” I said.

“Before Zodiac astrology there was Omen astrology created by Ptolemy that was defined as perceptions of myth, later disregarded by Sir Isaac Newton. You might say the Mayan’s were expert at this omen phenomenon with their astronomical calculations.”

The science of astronomy and astrology parallel in definition: To find a correspondence between the heavens and earth. In order to keep control of the masses the Mesoamerican priests relied on the charting of the stars to make predictions, such as the appearance of a comet or the solar eclipse, most importantly the appearance of Venus.

To illustrate his point, Hornsby recalled an English astrologer from the Seventeenth Century by the name of Lilly.

A comet appeared on November 21 in the year of 1618 and was seen for twenty-eight days, having moved backwards from nine Scorpio to seven Virgo, as Lilly had recorded in his ephemeris. If a comet appears in Scorpio it indicates civil discord, war and scarcity of provisions and the gruesome intestinal slaughter of victims by rioting subjects.

The declination of the comet corresponded to the fifty-first latitude, which is where the zenith of the comet crossed the local meridian once every twenty-four hours. The comet retrograded into Virgo corresponding to the fact that the kings and queens of England at the time all had Virgo rising in the year 1638, twenty years later.

Lilly surmised that the influence of change that brought about the birth of Great Britain’s Long Parliament in 1640 was germinated with the arrival of this comet. And what’s more, we entered the final four hundred year Baktun cycle in 1618. It was a galactic polarity shift that caused a new consciousness to break through in mankind, becoming more humanitarian in government policy.

“The secret to the mystery… is always the deepest at the gateway of its origin,” I said quoting Hornsby from his lecture. He nodded in a complete agreement.

“When it was discovered that the planetary orbits were fixed, it was assumed that one could accurately predict the future. Modern science is based upon the belief that because of cosmic order, the Darwinian mindset, our future is predetermined because of genetics. Zodiac astrology is based on fixed periods of revolutions or fixed frequencies that cannot explain the increased frequency of time, which the Mayan’s could. Like the Zodiac signs, the Mayan had solar signatures as well, that made up two hundred and sixty different combinations of thirteen numbers and the twenty emblem glyphs.”
To corroborate his theory, Hornsby presented the argument of Nature vs. Nurture as being set to rest by the progression of seven of the thirteen deities ruling the thirteen heavens in Mayan cosmology. The forces of nurture are depicted in sequence.

Pointing to a row of glyphs on the wall, Hornsby explained that a seed is planted during the rule of the First Heaven or god of procreation. This seed receives energy from the light of the god of sunrise in the Third Heaven. The gods of rain and water provide essential water: the Fifth and Seventh Heavens. The Ninth Heaven brings the god of fire that pushes the plant to blossom into a flower the Eleventh Heaven, finally bearing its mature fruit in the Thirteenth Heaven.”

“But there is always something essentially unpredictable in regard to the universe,” I said.

“Unless you have a frequency receiver of some sort to connect to the cosmos,” Hornsby said, “that keeps you in harmonic resonance. And the Mayan’s implicitly knew this.”

“The original archetype,” I replied watching Hornsby inspect the wall glyphs.

“That which runs from the explicit to the common, from the archetype to the symbol . . . just as Pacal Votan, the priest of Palenque claimed.”

“The code of thirteen times twenty,” I said.

“Or the simpler zero through nineteen code,” Hornsby added.

“The universal archetype of spiritual wisdom is stored in the prime number of nineteen – containing all the other numbers.”

We starred about the walls of the tower lined with carved glyphs enlightening our understanding. The effect of our scrutiny lit up Hornsby’s face.

“I think we’ve discovered a replica of the Holy Envelope.” Hornsby said exhilarated.
“What?” I was bewildered. How could the Soul Chamber and Holy Envelope be one of the same?
“The place that Quetzalcoatl was to receive instructions for guidance of his people the Toltec was within the Holy Envelope. The deities put the Holy Envelope in his care, concealing the divinity from human gaze.”
“Like a tabernacle or soul tube,” I said.

“Or Soul Chamber,” Hornsby added. “All three are synonymous for our purpose, except for one thing.”

“And that is?” I stammered.

“The Holy Envelope brings our consciousness in alignment with the earth’s envelope – that is the biosphere and noosphere transition in revealing all that is known.”

The wind howled outside of us. The sound of crashing trees and driving rain roared. Bolts of lightning flashed and thunder clapped. Our voices echoed throughout tower’s chamber as it acted as a sound buffer from the storm raging through the jungle.

“Why wasn’t this Holy Envelope found earlier?”
“Like the Tabernacle, I suspect it was removed from the malevolence of Tezcatlipoca, who tricked Quetzalcoatl to lose his credibility with the Toltecs and then overthrew him sending him away on a long journey. No doubt the Holy Envelope was taken somewhere safe.”

Hornsby related that when the city of Teotihuacan, Ce Actal Topiltzin Quetzalcoatl’s possible birthplace fell to Tezcatlipoca, those not wanting to be forced to follow Tezcatlipoca fled from fear of being murdered. Teotihuacan has reconstructed archeological evidence of a network of contacts that extended as far away as the jungle lowlands of Honduras and throughout Mesoamerica, so it stands to reason some of the refugees made alliances with neighboring Nahua and Mayan tribes.

The most interesting story is of a semi-mythical city never found called, Tamonchan. The refugees of Teotihuacan gathered there. It’s assumed that Xochicalco is this transitional site, which is between Teotihuacan and Tollan. But Xochicalco doesn’t contain unequivocal evidence.

Quetzalcoatl was reported to have made many trips to the East, where he was in touch with a Great Lodge whose members knew the secret of the Elixir of Life. To travel to the Great Lodge, one would need the Holy Envelope. The legend of these people, as recorded by the Aztecs is that their ancestors came from a land “on the great water” or Aztlan.

“Quetzalcoatl embodied a state of consciousness of the solar universe, embodying a messianic character enduring all to show humankind the highest state of being.” Hornsby said.

“The elixir of life,” I said recalling the Spanish explorer, Ponce de Leon’s quest to find the fountain of youth.

When the Spaniards arrived upon the shores of the Mayan civilization, thousands were being sacrificed at the temples to obtain the necessary nourishment for the Sun -- human hearts and blood. It was believed the Gods sacrificed their own flesh and blood as well. This was a catastrophic misunderstanding from what Quetzalcoatl had originally told the Toltecs.

To attain what Quetzalcoatl envisioned was based on the quality and type of every person’s movement as a critical aspect for attainment to universal consciousness – the climax of self-reflective thought resulted in an exponential change in perception.

Comparable to the Akashic Records, The I Ching and the Book of Changes, the Mayan matrix carried one to the comprehension of the Psi Bank embedded in the Sun – attainable through the Soul Chamber.
The Sun is sustained by humankind’s one rule spiritual conviction. The initiate’s free their heart from conditioned intellectual dominance. This meant the return of the human “sun” or “earth-sun” to the Cosmic Sun. The luminous particles of the human solar consciousness were to bring universal harmony by recognizing One Divine Creative Force.

“A spiritual testing of the global mind to understand that there is one law,” Hornsby added.
In the highland’s of Mexico there is a ancient chronicle called the Anales de Quahtitlan, where Venus is described has having “perils of rays,” shooting the kings or bringing death. It appeared on the day of Quetzalcoatl’s departure to become the planet Venus, a pivotal point in cosmic history that signified both the end and beginning of a world age cycle.

Since then, Quetzalcoatl’s life and death is repeatedly ritualized through Mesoamerican history. To become liberated, the spiritual hero, Quetzalcoatl built a bridge over the river blocking deliverance to show his followers the way to the Great Cosmos or Hunab Ku. He didn’t live for himself; he lived for the salvation of humankind.

No doubt Tezcatlipoca literally implemented the idea of human sacrifice as a means to keep control of his people and erase Quetzalcoatl’s spiritual influence. This was the process of the cyclic change. It was very barbaric and horribly perverted fallout from Quetzalcoatl’s overthrow.

Ironically all the Nahua tribes in Mexico worshiped Tezcatlipoca who mythically held a fiery mirror in which he saw all deeds on earth, passing judgment upon those at the time of their death. Death by sacrifice was the natural ending of a warrior’s life that ensured entrance into paradise. Death had become nothing more than an incident in the continuity between this life and the next.

The storm raged outside. The wind was howling so loudly I covered my ears. We had both crouched down against the wall together.

“You know why the Mexicans have the Feast of All Souls?” he shouted at me face to face with cupped hands about his mouth to act as megaphone.

I shook my head no. “Why?” I yelled back at him.

“Venus represents the return or reincarnation, like the Egyptian Osiris. The earth is like a mummy. The Mexicans hoist a mummy up a pole and then dance around it, because our origin of consciousness must bypass mortal death to become a part of the molecular universe. That is what motivates evolution, our DNA. Our conscious interpretation is but dense concrete.

“The key lays in our dreamtime, which speaks the language of metaphor. It transcends all linguistics and cultural barriers. It guides one’s spirit to make the transition. If not, then we are stuck here on earth . . . waiting to be freed. This is why the earth is like a mummy and the indigenous honor their ancestors. Its karmic insurance of sorts -- to make sure you’ll make it to heaven.”

The hurricane reached a fever pitch. The wind gusting inside the tower started to produce a vibrating tone that gradually increased in frequency. But instead of deafening my hearing, it soothed me. As it grew in intensity, the tone formed a harmonic cord of which I’ve never heard. It was a combination of a bassoon bass and treble pitch mixed with ribbons of a multitude of chorus voices. By the look on Hornsby’s face, I could tell he noticed it was well, looking about the tower’s walls in wonder at it all.

“Can you hear that?” I shouted to him.

“Yes. Absolutely fantastic, isn’t it,” he shouted back to me.

The tone hummed within the walls of the tower, the frequency of which vibrated through my whole body. I felt levity, bathed by its musical pitch.

“It’s a harmonic octave, I believe,” Hornsby said standing up.

I no longer could hear the hurricane’s fury outside, only the tonal pitch circulating about the interior of the tower’s walls as if was I standing inside a musical tuning fork, but this sounded like an ethereal harmonic. I felt a warm soothing sensation running through my blood.

My thoughts were clear and came from the depths of my being. Every cell in my body was alive. My skin tingled as the hair stood up on end. I wanted to rejoice as it made me feel I had been delivered from a dark world. Looking over at Hornsby, I saw him with out stretched arms, his face looking up toward the opening of the tower and crying jubilantly, “Fantastic!”

There was no awareness of the great cataclysm just outside the walls of the edifice. No sense of the danger or fear, just this divine rapturous tone engulfing us like . . . an envelope.

Then in the center of the tower an iridescent light emerged. It grew in a swirling flaming motion, spinning clockwise at a high speed and elongating itself up toward the top of the tower and at the same time toward the bottom. There were yellow sparks flying out of the center that bounced off the walls of the tower in a counterclockwise spiral upwards. I leaned back against the wall, as it expanded to such a size it was directly in front of my face. Like a huge torch, it flamed, but did not burn nor create intense heat. Instead it didn’t seem to emit any temperature at all, not hot or cold.

Xiuhtecuhtli,” Hornsby called out to me from the other side.

“Lord of Fire, the ancient God, the father and mother of all Gods.”

It took all I could bear to hold on to my wits.

“What was going to happen next?” I thought, feeling as if I was facing my Judgment Day. My body was pressed hard against the tower wall. If this all-encompassing energy wanted to consume us, so be it, but then again no, I didn’t want to die like this.

In my attempts to keep whatever was in store for me from this unnatural act of nature, I thought if I continued to focus on what life meant to me I would survive. I thought about my future with Cassarina, about what I still wanted to accomplish in my life, get married, have children, read more books, write and travel the world. I hadn’t tasted the sweet and bitter of it all. No, I wasn’t ready to depart this earth and begged with all my heart not to be taken, not for my spirit to depart, though it felt it wanted to leave my body so badly at that point.

In the next gasp of breath, I found myself flying into a night sky deep into heaven’s darkness. A slit of brilliant light, a wrinkle or warp in the seam of this darkness that didn’t have a source suddenly appeared to me. I entered, absorbed into its force field that took me further into what seemed deep space. There were billions of particles of twinkling brightness all about me.

As I spun about the whole of this interstellar universe, I realized it was my own molecular structure of my body. I was sustained there for what seemed an eternity. The bright hot stars darted in a dazzling sparkle. Then there was a flood of light for a split second filling me with eternal bliss.

“Can you see it?” Hornsby cried out repeatedly. I couldn’t see him, but sensed him, realizing he was communicating to me telepathically.

In a whirlwind shift, I found myself standing on a jagged stone path buried in an impassable web of prickly bushes and thorny trees growing in a humid jungle swamp, filled with reeds and rushes, wearing only a loin cloth. Monstrous snarling beasts growled, hidden behind the great thick brambles surrounding me, pacing and waiting to see if I would run out of fear: The chance they needed to pounce and devour me. I trembled from the sense of the violent way we suffer through life on this earth. Dark was the blood red sky and foreboding was the flames that licked upon my flesh from the bushes . . . I cursed Hornsby under my breath, thinking I’d been betrayed.

In that moment, an extraordinary sound, faint at first, but growing louder, summoned my attention. A rapturous musical sound, unlike the first one had heard, cut through the dense vile din of my surroundings.

Uayeb,” I heard a mystical voice say. “Uayeb,” it said again.
I feebly stuttered, “Uayeb” at first. Then, I gathered more strength the more I said it. Repeating it over and over again, the dark bloody sky broke away to a golden beam of light.

“You’ve open the House of the Sun, all is set in motion,” the ethereal voice called out.

A double rainbow appeared across the horizon, transforming the jungle swamp into a lush paradise, as if it had existed all along. The beasts were gone, the fiery bushes extinguished. Was it my own illusion that created the horrific sight? When I felt that all things were turned against me, now everything embraced me, including the innumerable creatures of the earth.

Hornsby appeared, walking along the path toward me. He was adorned in the likeness of a deity, proudly wearing an ornate flowing robe, planting his majestic bare feet, reverently, upon the path and with great splendor brought me this message.

“You have come to a mysterious region, that has remained unknown for so long. So many have tried, but none have crossed the barrier. The evil of the world you have come from, so keeps it this way. Only those who achieve annihilation of the Demon’s enslaving perceptions can enter here, but you cannot stay.”
“Why?” I asked.

“The warning of the Final Day, the message of cyclic transformation, the divine plan.”
“But here is paradise.”

“All things lead to here, but when Aztlan was abandoned, all things turned upon humankind. The Demon was evoked and cast spells upon all created things, turning them into wild beasts and the companions of our ancestors to mortal death. The Demon harms and weakens you, telling you eat all and drink much, to indulge yourself, seek wealth and flaunt your possessions, for all that has ruined you will decimate your entrails in exchange for the Demon’s enslavement.”

Hornsby then turned, with a long sweep of his arm across the landscape before us muttering a sorcerer’s invocation, bearing the light of the key to all supernatural powers.

Eritris sicut dei.” The living image of Quetzalcoatl appeared like a Morning Star on the eastern horizon.

“Your people call him Jehovah, Christ, Allah, Mohammad, Buddha.”

Turning around to fast the western horizon, Hornsby repeated the same ritual, materializing the fire-breathing Demon. “Eritris sicut dei.”
“Here is the Prince of Darkness, Lucifer, Devil, or Xolotl.”

Upon the mention of the Nahua Lucifer, I remembered seeing a powerfully mesmerizing glyph from Monte Alban. The entity had deformed limbs, a feline mouth and captivating pose that signified the genesis of Monte Alban – the tutor to the inner most depth of individual divine Being. There was no question that the heroic struggle against the debase passions of ourselves was in fact a great celestial battle that our Self was submitted to from birth. The victor of all temptations killed them.
“They are all kinship,” the mystical Hornsby said.

“But why are we so sure that one is good and one is bad,” I asked.

“The ultimate meaning has been lost. Each complement the other – helping along our journey?
It is human imagination that created the more vile beasts, giving them permission to exist among them on earth. Humanity has been cursed with regret ever since.”

“How?” I wanted to know, standing there in what could have been the Garden of Eden, enjoying the sense of peace and leisure.

“The One Divine Law is the all-encompassing theme leading toward the inevitability of the cyclic end, as the Ancestor’s have prophesized. Many have construed that a certain religious practice holds the key, the upper hand, if you will, in protecting its devoted followers from the ultimate punishment of an Armageddon occurrence. Such beliefs are built upon the interwoven motifs of centuries old religious symbolism and cloud over the simple truth: the fulfillment of an undeviating law of destiny – a duality of good and bad – the actions of which either cause damage or benefit one’s soul – will be made known on the Final Day of this Great Cycle.

“In this way, as the world enters the final years of the Great Cycle, each individual must remain conscious, not in the Biblical sense of a rapturous salvation, but in the day by day existence of holding their consciousness to see the innumerable ways that divine mercy is being bestowed upon your people. This will carry you across the threshold when the opportunity for the final transforming liberation arrives on the Final Day. Hopefully, your people will not literary take the intuitive cosmic message of an evolving spiritual consciousness to mean that they must kill each other off as a sacrifice to their chosen deity, who conveniently replaced Hunab Ku, in how faithful they are, just as the Mayan sacrificed their own in the final days of their existence.”

The context of “your people” stuck in my mind. Hornsby was speaking as a separate entity. Curious I reached out to touch him, discovering I could pass my hand right through his robe. He turned and smiled affectionately at me.

“You’re not real,” I said.

“Real as can be,” Hornsby said. “We are the Ancestral Archetype.”

At that moment both Hornsby and I collapsed to the floor of the Soul Chamber, dazed. As I regained my senses, I noticed the hurricane had subsided. Sunlight was shining down through the tower, illuminating the emblem glyph walls. The color stones were set in a pattern of a circular matrix, spiraling up toward the top, where at the opening the huge stele I had seen before from outside was mounted.

Hornsby leaped up to his feet surveying the height of the tower.

“Hornsby?” I stammered. “What are you doing?”

I got up, seeing that the ethereal Hornsby had transformed back to his old self.
“You’re dressed different,” I said.

Hornsby was distracted. It dawned on me that he didn’t remember what he was portraying or saying to me a moment ago. Instead, he his attention was diverted elsewhere.

“Space and time have no difference in the universe. They are both forms of ethereal energy. And that is consciousness. The origin of which comes from a galactic core, the Mayans called Hunab Ku the eye of the hurricane. It is the means of losing yourself, your ego.”

He motioned me to give him a boost up to the first cross-timber for him to get a foothold.
“Quick, Jules, now’s our chance to see what’s at the top.”

I laced my fingers together to give him a step. With a grunt I boasted him high enough so he could grab the nearest beam swinging himself up. He moved like a cat, jumping up to the next timber and the next briefly stopping to take a glance at the progression of the hieroglyphics.
“You can’t believe this, Jules. It’s the Tzolk’in.”

“I’m going to take a look outside,” I called out to him walking out onto the sun-drenched courtyard.

“Sounds good to me,” Hornsby replied as he moved up the two-story edifice. “This is profound… there are star clusters that appear to map out celestial constellations. It looks like the Pleiades star cluster and another one on the other side… appears to be Orion.”

When I walked out I was momentarily blinded by the bright sunlight as I immediately looked up at the lintel to confirm what Hornsby claimed as Quetzalcoatl. He was right, though this form seemed to me to be more of an anthropomorphic design. I gazed about the plateau to see that it was littered in debris.

Branches from trees laid about the ruin in disarray, making it more difficult to find a route back to where we had first arrived. But the brilliance of the blue sky above and the sunlight brought forth a lush green tropical color glistening from the rain that belied the fact that we had just survived a hurricane.

The cisterns that I had earlier passed by were filled with clear rainwater. I dipped my cupped hands into one of the cisterns to drink some water. As I stood there sipping the water I noticed a peculiar glow from the corner of my eye. Between the fissures of stone caused by the protruding roots system of a mangrove tree, there appeared to be a dim golden light coming from within the ruin. I rubbed my eyes to get a better look, peering down at my feet. The glare of the sunlight made it difficult to determine if it was just the reflection of water pooled below. I went to kneel down, but Hornsby called out to me.

“Jules, look at me. I made it to the top.”

I turned around to see Hornsby energetically waving his arms at me in absolute delight.
“Evam maya e ma ho. All hail to the harmony of all mind and universe,” he joyous shouted.
“In Lake’ch. I am another yourself,” I yelled back at him, waving my arm.

As Hornsby stood there, waving, a gaseous cloud formed above the stele, spinning in a clockwise direction. It extended some distance upwards toward the clear blue sky, as another vapor cloud formed about the circular edifice, spinning in a counterclockwise spin and fanning out across the courtyard. I ran to the edge of the terrace to avoid it.

At a safe distance I could see the force field of these two bulky cyclonic vortexes formed an hourglass design. Where the two spouts would have touched, they didn’t. Instead, Hornsby was linked directly between their apexes. The vortexes were transparent enough for me to distinguish the presence of a separate inner spherical convolution, like a tri-directional force that created bands or layered dimensions that looked like nested spheres within the body of each vortex. Both the stele and circular tower had become obscured by the vortexes’ vapors.
“James, get out of there,” I shouted.

He didn’t hear me. Hornsby was enraptured by the supernatural event. I saw him extending his arms straight out, his head cocked backwards toward the sky transfixed at the wonder of it. The whirling cyclones caused my own perceptions to be altered.

Everything about us came to a standstill. I could recognize an ethereal energy running through all the foliage of the jungle, caught in the vibration of space shedding the constructs of a third dimension reality. The natural realm of life was revealed, as my vision about me was a virtual world of molecular substances.

All that made any real movement was an expansion and contraction of the atmosphere, producing a musical octave emitted from the density of the two spinning vortexes. And then it happened.

A bolt of lightning shot down from the clear blue sky from above, directly into the upper vortex, penetrating Hornsby’s body and continuing down into the bottom vortex. An iridescent shock wave of light burst out horizontally from where Hornsby had been standing expanding across the temple’s mesa dissipating into the jungle canopy.

In that moment, the history of all eternity effortlessly rushed though my mind. In the next second the coned vortexes vanished and Hornsby was gone. It took me a few seconds to realize what had happened. My head was still swimming from the experience as I rushed toward the tower hoping to find Hornsby inside. Maybe he had fallen down.

But my hopes were dashed when I arrived inside, yelling, “James” and finding nothing but an empty tower. I cried out, “James, for gods sake!”

Running back outside I hoped that he might have been cast off the tower’s top, landing on the temple’s courtyard. I ran about the ancient cisterns, climbing over thick layers of storm debris, anxiously hoping that somewhere he was lying, dazed or unconscious and needed my immediate rescue. But nothing turned up. Not a trace.

In the time that followed, for however long it was, I don’t remember. It just came at the point when I was completely forlorn from the loss of Hornsby that the steel wall of the hurricane slammed into me. We had been in the eye of the storm. I was beset to survive the second onslaught of wind and rain, alone.

Had I wanted to indulge in my anguish, the storm wouldn’t let me as it came charging ahead across the landscape preoccupying me with remaining alive. The wind was so fierce that I was blown off my feet and tumbled backwards on the edge of the temple’s cornice. The rain whipped my face like a thousand stinging bees. It stung so bad I had to keep my head down, momentarily cupping my hands over my mouth to catch my breath.

Gripping a hold onto some shrubs another blast of wind ripped my hands free and I fell backwards on the mounded terraces, landing hard against an exposed stone block gashing my forehead open. Debris flew all about me. The fury of the storm seemed more violent than before.
Shielding my face, I tried to make for some shelter, somewhere down in the jungle because the wind was too fierce for me to climb back up to the plaza to hide in the tower. Disheveled and bleeding I turned to make a treacherous descent from the temple.

The roar of the hurricane tore at the tree canopy bending it like twigs under its tremendous blasts of wind. I continued to tumble and fall for a short time; flinging myself helplessly down what was an ornate stairway centuries ago. With clenched teeth and expelled breath I was conscious of one thing, my dream had come true.

CHAPTER FOURTEEN: THE FINAL LEG


By morning the rain stopped, but the cloud cover remained. The encampment slowly stirred to life. Horse coughing, babies crying, low sleepy voices, and the fear of finding more who had died through the night greeted the new day. The dawning light illuminated the vivid dreariness of paucity that surrounded me.


I thought Hornsby would have debated Cassarina’s decision to stay with hair-splitting objections. However, Hornsby had become distracted with some startling news. I learned from Cristobal that Hornsby and the Mayan tribal bataab had struck up a conversation of sorts regarding knowledge of a lost Mayan temple.


In the meantime, Cassarina was already off in the jungle collecting medicinal plants to start making a small pharmaceutical laboratory for Dr. St. Germain. Given her absence, I didn’t have a chance to talk further with her about my decision to agree to go ahead without her. Had she already discussed this with Hornsby, I didn’t know.

Hornsby informed me that the bataab confirmed our findings with his corroborative information from the cryptic vault. This remarkable twist of fate was profoundly unbelievable.
“There is a lost Mayan temple near El Destino named Yaxkin.”

It was hardly the place for such exuberance, given the human anguish surrounding us, but the hunter was soon to capture his prize. I couldn’t squelch Hornsby’s excitement even though he was becoming a bit maniacal.

The tribal chief related to Hornsby that when he was a young man, he had climbed up the highest mountain in his region where he overlooked the jungle. Along the horizon he saw a great city with white turrets glittering in the tropical sun. It was here, he said, is Yaxkin, but it has always been considered a forbidden place. He claimed there were messengers that went to and fro from the mysterious temple, but no one had ever gone there because of the warning of death to intruders. The bataab believed they still perform the rites of Quetzalcoatl, keeping alive their ancient faith and power of the Feathered-Serpent.

When I questioned Hornsby about being worthy to enter their territory, without a beat he said we were more than worthy.

“How do you know?” I replied.

“We found the cryptic vault, didn’t we?”

We spent the day burying the dead Maya woman with a small cortege under a mound of limestone rocks. That evening we set about preparing for the next and hopefully the final leg of our expedition. For the most part it was a nice distraction from the sorrowful angst around us. Not that I was uncompassionate.

It was beyond my comprehension at the time to absorb the human tragedy. What was going on with the military and rebel conflict for whatever political reasons, I couldn’t justify. I hadn’t come here to get involved in a civil war, but still it wasn’t my ethic to look the other way.

Upon the face of it, I would have stayed with Cassarina, but I knew Hornsby would have continued on with Cristobal, and that was a flimsy proposition. So, I took it upon myself to be his guardian for Cassarina’s sake and return him safely. She had been candid enough to convince me that I was what she perceived as “a man’s man” and that was inspiring enough. As well, Dr. St. Germain urged us on, relieved that Cassarina would stay on to help her.

“The living must keep going. This is the fact of life, no?” Dr. St. Germain said as she sat among us eating our simple meal of cooked snake, some salad greens washed down with coconut milk that Cristobal and Cassarina had prepared.

“This is our base camp,” Hornsby said devouring cooked snake meat with his fingers. “When we return, we’ll move the refugees down the Rio San Pedro and across the Mexican border at El Ceibo to safety,” he said in optimistic resolve.

We all nodded in agreement, resigned to the difficulty of such an immense task.

I could only hope for such an easy outcome as I found a place to spend the night. Relieved that the rain had stopped, I hoped to get a good night’s sleep. I had expected that being so close to our objective, Yaxkin, the Mayan spirits would visit me in my dreams that night. They didn’t. Instead, Cassarina did.

Cassarina didn’t expect her desperate yearnings for my kisses, my touch, nor to understand the tantalizing passion that developed between us over the past few months. But she surrendered, unexpectedly, having given me no warning other than our previous night’s revealing conversation.

Safe were we, entwined in loving embrace, passionate kisses, under the shelter of night, driven by the inscrutable spirit that bonds for the sake of affection. Aroused, I wanted to make love to her, but she stopped me.

“Jules, save your strength,” she said stroking my face to calm me.

“I want you,” I whispered.

“And I want you, but . . .” she paused, kissing me on the forehead and my lips. “This is not the time or place.”
My heart was torn. I had come to the threshold of that great divine place between lovers and was put at bay to behold but not touch. She was right. I knew it.

“I don’t expect a happy-ever-after ending, Jules,” Cassarina confided before drifting off to sleep.
In the morning the three of us, Cristobal, Hornsby and I, set off under the well wishes of the two doctors. We must had looked like three ragged desperados; bandana’s tied about our heads with unshaven faces, wielding machetes through our belts and me lugging the backpack with the essentials for cooking and spare clothes.

For a moment I turned back to look at Cassarina. She stood there with a coquettish look on her face. She winked at me, and blew me a kiss and using sign language she said to me, “I L-O-V-E Y-0-U.”
In that fleeting second of my life, I was torn to leave her, where before she had been so standoffish in the beginning, I never imagined that I was on an unavoidable success to win her love. It took all my will power not to run back to her. I smiled, acknowledging that I understood her silent message.

“A man’s man . . .” I thought to myself while waving goodbye to my dear companion. “In a few days I’ll return to your embrace.”

Hornsby charted our direction with his army surplus compass while Cristobal and I hacked away at the jungle overgrowth to clear a path. By noon we had made a good distance of several kilometers, as the sun broke through the cloud cover, steaming up the jungle floor. We were in the lake filled Laguna Del Tigre region. Maybe in a few hours we could make our destination, but our malnourished bodies lack stamina. The tropical heat only made it incomprehensibly worse.

Our enthusiasm nourished us more than anything, carrying us along as we threaded our way through the thick bush. Periodically we had to stop and rest to regain our strength. At those times, Hornsby would re-calculate his bearings with a makeshift sextant he had made while we were held up at the tree house. While Cristobal cut down some coconuts, I looked upon Hornsby in a new perspective. Here was the surrogate father of Cassarina, an exiled anthropologist, and a ghost of a chance discoverer of a lost Mayan temple, all of which had come about from the inhospitable regions of existence. The sudden rustling of toucan birds over head diverted my thought.

The noise was distant at first. Then it grew louder. The thundering drumming of helicopter blades slicing the air moved quickly toward our location. The sound ran chills through my body. I couldn’t see through the jungle canopy, but it was recognizable as it articulated a warning that danger was descending upon us. Had a sentry in the treetops spotted us?

Peligro,” Cristobal said under his breath.

“Danger,” Hornsby repeated.

It was clear the copter was coming directly toward us. The three of us suddenly threw ourselves into a panic to run as best we could through the tangled vines and underbrush. I couldn’t move fast enough. We knew it was futile. As the Huey helicopter came closer, Cristobal made a heroic offering of himself to distract them from Hornsby and me.

He turned and started to run in the opposite direction.

I infuriately objected. “No, no!”

Cristobal energetically waved us to save ourselves. He smiled and then turned back toward the hovering gunship, deliberately waving his arms to attract their attention. I saw it hover for a moment, then bank sideways to bear down on Cristobal, taking the bait. I stood motionless for a second, fearful that we were once again losing a companion to the Guatemalan Civil Patrol incursion.

“Jules, run. There’s nothing you can do. It’s their war.” Hornsby grabbed me by the shoulder.
I recoiled from Hornsby’s grip but he was right. His wisdom always embraced the vaster scheme of things. We had to make haste for cover or risk losing our own lives.

“We . . . will . . . have . . . to . . . move . . . on,” Hornsby said, panting for breath.

Instinctively, I ran behind him. The noise of the helicopter was following Cristobal, as I imagined he was running as hard as he could, hoping to lure the Guatemalan Civil Patrol as far from us as possible and yet find some protection for himself.

“The refugee camp,” I stammered, drench in sweat, gasping for breath. The fear of them being discovered, worse yet, Cassarina, drained me to a pale color.

“Cassarina will take care of them,” Hornsby replied.

The distant sound of staccato machine gun fire cut through the air. I dove frightened onto the ground, digging my face into the rotting humus soil, buying my fear and disdain. I cried. I sobbed. Hornsby pulled on me, yanking me up, trying to make me stand.

“Get a hold of yourself, Jules.” I had wilted in his huge rough hands. My legs were rubber. The thought of Cristobal being killed devastated me.

“He was innocent,” I sobbed.

“And so are we,” Hornsby offered as a nervous condolence.

He dragged me up to my feet. I reluctantly advanced under his prodding trying to quell my hysteria. I was fleeing from something that compromised my confidences in humanity. The truth was a pestilence in the hurried air of those helicopter blades, indiscriminately scattering death in all directions.

It had a fiery sense that assailed one’s courage; the sight of it alone sent my heart pounding with it spewing out a violent wrath from above. I could only imagine what the innocent victims must have felt moments before its fury was unleashed upon them. And for that matter Cristobal. Hornsby forced me ahead of him, prodding me so as I wouldn’t stop.

In an hour the Huey was long gone, the sense of it seemed to have been an apparition, but then there was no Cristobal to prove me wrong. It was strange, but I soon resigned myself to the outcome, having become more accustomed to this tragedy, unlike the time at El Desempeno. Again, I escaped death’s grip as we moved on toward our destination.

A cluster of mountain ranges was off to the west side of us. At times I caught glimpses of the distant peaks of the Sierra Del Norte De Chiapas, making me ache to return to the blissful simplicity of our lives a month before. Since the moment we divined the possible reality of the Soul Chamber, our lives had been cast to a tumultuous fate.

We descended the two thousand meter high montana entering the lowland jungle with its permanent watercourses threading themselves from the Tikal high ground in Peten down into the Tabasco basin of the Yucatan peninsula. Hacking our way through dense jungle and forging rivers and streams, we were now at last a half-day’s travel to our objective.

The pungent fragrant odors of orchids and bromeliads had filled my senses; the plethora of wildlife had enriched my sense of wonderment of this magnificent tropical zone, and the destructiveness of human greed had stained my trust in the integrity of humankind. Not a drop of rain had fallen all day, but the cloud cover was ominous. Hornsby announced in the late afternoon we should make camp.

“From my calculations, we can locate Yaxkin tomorrow,” he said with blazing fiery eyes. “El Destino is seventeen degrees and forty nine minutes north and ninety one and one minute west.”
A camp fire was out of the question, as it could attract military scouts, so Hornsby set about the jungle, hacking up some palm hearts for us to collect water from. In that quiet moment of dusk, as I waited on the professor, I remembered how heroic Hornsby looked to me standing at the podium in the lecture hall that spring day. He cared not for gold or archeological treasures of the world. The significance of his purpose was bringing the Soul Chamber to life.

He unwittingly aroused envy in me. His intelligence rewarded him with an extraordinary convincing character that transformed me on the day I met him to find a purpose to my own life. I never would have suspected the sinister plans of his colleagues to undue him.

What a disobedience to God’s will to make him suffer humiliation at the cost of their ignorance. It was inconceivable to me to have betrayed his intuition as I had watched him foster a courageous spirit under the most fatal circumstances brought on by evil forces, which sparked his own psychic influence to cultivate conquering optimism. This was his glorious patriotism.

“It is possible?” I thought to myself.

Are we that near to what we had set out to do over six months before? Were we in the mist of our exalted treasure that was considered by most a figment of imagination? I wanted to rally with my last honest effort on his behalf, my honored mentor and friend. Every inch we gained and survived in this crusade was worth the risks to find some evolutionary link of harmonic consciousness hidden from our eyes.

Presenting me with some palm hearts and halved coconuts to eat, we sat together unafraid as the sky turned into night.

Hornsby looked thoughtfully across at me, munching.

“We are off the beaten track of civilization. Even the Spaniards that came here were confronted and pushed back to sea from the jungle pestilence. The luxuriant vegetation of these tropical lands seduces us, but the notorious history of misrule and anarchy prevail.”

I knew he was trying to console me about Cristobal.

“It is not so strange that few wonder into these places, having only a machete to carve out a passage. But remember a people destitute of metallic tools built these majestic ruins.” Hornsby said with reassurance, trying to throw off the burden of Cristobal’s violent fate.

The luxury of romancing the Mayan mystery at the university’s library was forgotten. The reality of making this journey outstripped my sensibilities. I had become accustomed to the insects and mosquito bites. All of it was just a pesky nuisance, though my skin was taking the toil of their parasitic ravages. The homeless ghosts of the massacred villagers, Father Hernandez last words, Cassarina’s subtle sighs as I tenderly kissed her, the cherished Lacandones, the dreamtime appearance of Moise, the dying refugees, all those things remembered or cast-out confronted me in this region of the earth as an unbelievable world.

Regardless, I nestled into a comfortable feeling of being in the womb of mother earth. This was God’s creation, I assured myself. From the beginning of time, here was the Garden of Eden. The Biblical story of Genesis, the Quiche Maya Popol Vul or Book of Advice and all the primitive history of humankind wrapped up around me in a terrestrial realm.

What’s more, I never got a chance to turn the pages of The Anahuac Mythology. What secrets did it behold for Father Hernandez that he felt compelled to share had perplexed me. He made no mention of its contents when we talked in the kitchen or did he, indirectly? That was something I resigned myself to never being able to answer.

How was it that we were continuously beset with the difficulties of finding the appropriate solutions to sustaining a peaceful life when we had cultivated such profound wisdom through the ages? Was it an unconquerable devil that truly governs the spirit of the earth just as Quetzalcoatl’s foe conquered him? I wanted to find solace in the stars above me, but the night sky had clouded over with a thick and heavy layer above us. I curled up into a ball leaning against the trunk of a mangrove tree. In no time I dozed off into a deep sleep, but in short time, I was rudely awaken by a frenzied Hornsby.

“I must talk with you Jules,” he said with a desperate tone of voice.

I roused myself awake startled by his urgency. I came face to face with the wild-eyed expression of a man who was obsessed in a sudden frenzy.

“What is it, James,” I said calling him by his first name for the first time since I knew him.
“The spirits cry out to me in my dreams,” Hornsby said, frenzied.

I adjusted myself to scrutinize him, rubbing my eyes.

“Their power is so great . . . like the eye of a hurricane, it whirls within me.”

Seated with an earnest appeal in his voice to gain my attention, I waved him on as an obligation. He composed himself with a sober smile.

“Who can read the story of creation? Neither does it live in a culture’s tradition or is written in history. There is mystery here, hidden by the darkness of ages. We question the past, content to believe that thousands of people have roamed the earth sinking into oblivion with no consequence to our existence. Only a few races have left a trace of their subsistence. We find monuments of ancient skill, doctrine of mythology, intricate sketches and portraits, showing us how the mind must advance, seeking new fields of conquest. If not, our consciousness will be defeated. Our consciousness does not rest until it reaches its gain, its objective point or demonstrates that the quest is hopeless.

“And science, with all its resources is brought to bear in contribution the creation of a new science that is added to human knowledge. But I tell you; while we roll back the voyage of time and learn the condition of primitive man we have yet to triumph in our analysis. Science has enriched our understanding of life to a point. Geology unfolded into paleontology, as impressions in rock revealed fossils. And the science of Human Antiquities laid the foundation for archeology.

“As Columbus perceived the traces of land as yet invisible and had to take the ridicule of his peers to think such things, there are those of us who must break from these academic constraints as seekers of the great questions to the origin and history of our consciousness.
“There was not a great sudden change in the Stone Age, except here among the Mayab Forest. It was as if the darkness of the land was given the light of the Holy Grail. Most likely it was trade between the Mesoamerican’s that expanded their civilizations over time, but something deep in their psyches was awakened from an external force. The myths of the Mayans have since become the inheritance for our modern world to understand, where the mournful ruins stand as testaments to their far-reaching awareness in the barren wilderness of understanding.

“Nations have come and gone, but the Mayan temples still stand as navigational markers, left behind to tell others about the portal, the path, the course. What is lost, the truth, is but a code we haven’t allowed ourselves to perceive.

“The mist of epochs between them and us is so thick, like the dense fog of night that only the rough outlines can be determined. The whole body of the spiritual system is hidden from the bare eye. This cyclic physics of timelessness, we don’t understand as fully as the Mayans. The rotating and counter rotating of electrometric fields about our earth as some kind of stabilizing grid.

“There is a radiant point out there in the cosmos sending a vast energetic message to us. At times I can feel it. And the nature of the Mayan numerical calculations recognizes this fact. To receive this frequency our true natures are archetypal in nature, resonating with cosmos. This all makes for a seemingly endless conundrum of perplexity to our rational science. But it does make sense to me. I just wish I knew more about their language.”

Hornsby, spent and wild-eyed, drifted off, mumbling to himself. He moved a short distance away from me, lost in his frantic thoughts. A man obsessed. I hunched back down to go back to sleep. But the restlessness of the air kept me half awake.

At day break the mournful cries of the howler monkeys caused me to rise and shake my numb limbs about. Hornsby dozed, a slight snore gave me the impression he was deep in his dreams. The pang of hungered made me long for a hot breakfast. Something other than lizards, beetles, snake, foliage and tropical fruits that would get me through the day.

“One can’t muster the strength to face the day on a empty stomach,” I thought to myself.

Taking out the mess kit, I neatly laid out the utensils, cup and plate in the pattern of a formal table setting. I imagined fried eggs; harsh browns, bacon and cut juicy melon in nice neat squares placed for my consumption before me. I took my hot cup of coffee, sipping it while taking in its steamy aroma that filled my nostrils. Then with my Swiss army knife I forked up some hash browns, munching the delicious texture of salt, pepper and oil soaked crispy fries. Oh, yes, and there was a stack of toast and jam to devour as well, slathered in creamy butter. With that I sopped up the runny yoke of an egg cooked sunny side up. As I finished up this delightful meal, Hornsby stirred, awakened from my rummaging.

“Care to join me?” I asked, holding up my cup of imaginary coffee in my hand. Hornsby couldn’t believe his eyes.

“Jules, are you mad?” He quickly sat up.
“Yes, you’re right. I should have waited for you. How impolite of me.”

Hornsby grabbed me by the shoulders violently shaking me.

“Snap out of it, Jules!”

“Ok, ok, James. It’s ok. I’m not mad. I was just . . . ” I paused looking up at him.

He had a terrified look in his face. I had scared the wits out of him, something I thought not possible, realizing how dependent he was on my own sanity. Settling down, he gathered himself while I put the mess kit away.

“For chrissakes, Jules don’t pull a stunt like that again. You know how vulnerable we are right now.”

“It’s ok, James. We best get on with our exploration, don’t you agree?”

Hornsby thoughtfully agreed.

Together we surveyed the map and compass heading. Identifying a decidedly point of reference from the landscape off in the distance the two us set off directly east of El Destino. If the day was to bring about our great discovery, let it be so. I ignored the deadly calm of the air and dark cloud cover that looked like an approaching tempestuous storm.

“Tally ho,” I said to Hornsby with the gusto of a rallying cry.

With that the sky unleashed a thunderous clap. A light rain started to fall. We were blissfully unaware that moving swiftly toward us off the coast of the Yucatan peninsula was Hurricane Brenda.

CHAPTER THIRTEEN: REFUGEE CAMP

We had to cross the Rio San Pedro next, making our way between two villages, El Ceibo in Mexico and Progresso in Guatemala. The upper region of the Peten, our destination, was only a few days trek from here. Farther east of us was the unexcavated Mayan ruin of Yaxha, near the village of Naranjo. Still concerned about military patrols, Cristobal kept us off the beaten track.

The Rio San Pedro appeared to flow as a void in the jungle wilderness. Traversing the length of the Peten region of Guatemala, this river is a highway connecting human life that struggles to survive in the middle of nowhere. Most likely during the height of the Maya civilization, this river was a vibrant trade route for commerce and possibly warring tribes.

We drew in our horses and dismounted arriving at the river’s edge. The brilliant sunshine of the late morning beamed down upon the lazy river’s current. Standing by its swollen banks I was impressed by the remarkable peaceful phenomenon of its presence. Large puffy clouds dotted the horizon, a warning of more rain to come by afternoon. I then heard the faint sound of a low continuous roar down river.

“What’s that?” I asked Cristobal.

He said there were some rapids that we had to avoid and knew of a place that was shallow enough to cross farther up river. In single file, as if in certitude to Cristobal, we walked the distance in the ambience of the blue sky and river, enmeshed with lush green foliage. It was not far before we arrived at a small outcropping of cleared land.

In methodical silence we secured our gear to the saddles, making sure to tightly wrap the camera, journals, film and pistols in our ponchos. Out of the corner of my eye I caught a confidential glance between Cristobal and Hornsby. All feelings of the fierce inhumanity of life had disappeared. It all seemed to be turning out for the good. Cassarina looked infinitely calm; more stately and mature than I had ever seen her. There was no doubt she had reconciled the anguish in her heart. I was relieved.

“Just cross the river and we’ll almost be there.” I imagined what we would see as we passed through the Laguna del Tigre region dotted by lush lakes, while working our way closer to Yaxkin and possibly the location of the Soul Chamber. The prospect had given me a twinge of renewed excitement.

By the time we were set to swim the horses across the river, the wind had stirred into a stiff breeze, blowing against the river’s current. Ripples upon the river’s surface were clearly visible making the velocity of the water’s flow deceptive. The clouds were building into a dark grayish wall of thunderheads, their whitish pink anvil heads soaring into the heavens in the eastern horizon.

“Best get across and make shelter,” Hornsby said while surveying the approaching storm.

The time had come to move quickly, once again. We striped down to our underwear, packing our clothes to keep them dry. Hornsby took the lead, with Cassarina close behind. The horses mildly protested at first, but Cristobal whipped them with a switch.

Plunging into the chilly waters of the river, each of us led our horse with the reins gripped between our teeth. There was a short distance between each of us at first, but the current and panicky horses widen the gaps. As I breast stroked through the muddy water, I kept my eyes fixed on a spot across the river so as to navigate my position relative to the river’s flow. From the corner of my eye, I could see Hornsby drifting downriver as he neared the middle, but still making his way with brisk strong breaststrokes. Cristobal was behind me, calling out.

Nadar contra corriente.”

Cassarina and her horse we caught in the swirling current as well. I was about to try and swim in her direction, hoping we’d make it across before coming to the rapids when I saw a partially submerged tree trunk coming around the river’s bend. It was massive with barren branches protruding out in a frightening posture.

The log’s path was headed straight for us. If we continued to swim against the current, the floating log would drift into the horses and us. Hornsby appeared to be out of danger, but Cassarina and I were in harms way. Cristobal shouted something at us, but my own splashing from trying to find a means of escape drowned him out.

The horses sensed the danger and started to pull at their reins dragging Cassarina under water. In a few moments, Cassarina surfaced, floundering against the horse’s fear and her fight to keep from drowning. Taking stock of the situation, Cassarina let go of the reins. The struggling horse swam away from her, headed directly for the rapids. She furiously swam to the other side of the river. Hornsby’s horse panicked pulling him back toward the middle of the river, as well. I didn’t fair any better.

Between gasps of air and choking on muddy river water, my horse yanked hard, twisting me around. I grip the reins in one hand, in hopes of forcing the beast to follow me, but instead he overpowered me, plunging me dangerously deeper beneath the river’s surface. It became a matter of tug-of-war, with me hopelessly loosing the battle as my strength gave out. With my lungs ready to burst, I surrendered the reins and swam toward the river’s surface, desperate for air.

Just when I resurfaced to catch my breath, I was slammed hard from the submerged log. Knocked unconscious, I don’t recall how I was saved, but later, once I was brought ashore and revived, Hornsby told me that Cristobal and him let their horses go, so they could swim to me. A bit shaken, I rested soon enough.

“You got a nasty bump on the head, maybe a slight concussion,” Cassarina offered in her expert medical opinion. “Are you well enough to move?”

“We can leave you here, Jules, and come back for you,” Hornsby said, anxious to go find the horses and our gear.

I scanned the sky to see that there was no time to waste as the tropical storm was quickly moving our way. The first thing that came to mind was that I had survived four near misses of death. There was the rock ledge incident, the massacre at the mission, my bout with malaria and now a near drowning. Each time I survived the odds, including the others, though they didn’t come as close to death.

“I’m fine,” I stammered, not convincing Cassarina.

My head was swimming, and my eyes couldn’t focus, but I determined that once I got up and moved around I’d get my bearings back.

We sought our gear and the horses down river trampling through the shoreline brush. The horses were nowhere to be seen, either having drowned in the ragging white water or they had made it to safety running off. The loss was disheartening.

Fortunately, we found Hornsby and Cassarina’s backpacks washed up along the river’s edge about a kilometer downriver. My backpack, other than my clothes and mess kit, contained the camera, film and pistol, lost forever – including Father Hernandez’s gift, The Anahuac Mythology. Most importantly was the damaging evidence of the death squad massacre at the mission and our only weapon for defense, Hornsby’s revolver.

Cassarina’s backpack had the journals of drawings from the cryptic vault and medical kit. They were soaked through. Hornsby carried the navigational equipment, compass and maps, none of which suffered any damage. But over all we were in desperate straights again. Without the horses, our journey would take more time. In resignation and despair, Cristobal said we would go to Progresso to get provisions and equipment.

I keenly eyed Cassarina to see if our misfortune would shake her foundation. But she didn’t complain. She took it in stride. I, on the other hand, felt more despondent, noticing that Hornsby’s enthusiasm dimmed as he shook his head in despairing annoyance.

Low dark clouds blocked out the sun drenched blue sky. Streaks of lightning and rumbling thunder came from the distant horizon. Thick drops of rain started to fall. The tropical deluge had started again. The four of us collected up our gear and started to hike along a jungle path headed northeast.

The unknowns of the jungle are forever consuming your thoughts. You eventually come to a place of surrender or you’ll go mad. You can’t win back the toiling efforts, those climatic moments of accomplishment, as the next event, even more monstrous, can deny you of its pleasure. Anyone of us had to live with the other question that kept us guessing. As we marched single file in the tropical downpour, Hornsby declared in frustration that either he will win back his respect or be done with it forever.

The whole passionate ordeal of the expedition danced before him, that which initiated him to be an anthropologist in an unappeasable manner. The man had sought it out in a wilderness of indigenous tombs, saying farewell to the comforts of an English suburb. He found himself victorious enough times against the odds by producing fortunes from entering the depths of human antiquity. Enough times that he was one of them in flesh and blood, garnished with indigenous mythology.

In reflection to his anthropological distinction, his state of mind had out shone him. The whole ordeal this time seemed to beguile him into its long intensities of proving his convictions as a solitary man. Nobody on the other side of the globe had any interest or anything to say to him.

He was a mere insect, an illness to their consciousness. How could it be that when we have such discoveries, the rock art, the cryptic vault and my dream, our sublime feelings are meet with such ugly things of less goodness and more evil. Was the universe taking enjoyment in our degradation? Or was it the means of molding us, through laborious time and unyielding faith to change our consciousness into something wiser, better, and more omnipotent ourselves? Or was there just nothing for us to change into?

Cassarina walked near him. Again, the two of them talked in muffled tones about something. I imagined she was providing him some kinds words of reconciliation in light of our ill luck. I paid little attention. I had no delusions about the two of them. They had both showed their vulnerable sides, the under belly of their academic veneer. Both were characters of action -- charging forward like an infuriated bull -- horns down and nothing could stop them. They were made of strong nerves, and certain refinement, a rare combination.

For myself, the expedition had taken me further into the depths of my own understanding of one’s life long destiny. Had I come to the isthmus to sacrifice myself to its deities, the near –death mishap outcomes diminished my thoughts of perishing in the Mayab Forest. That was a comforting reassurance under the circumstances, but unsettling to think that one of my other companions still could.

Cristobal caught our attention with a hushed warning. Something was moving in the jungle nearby. Fixing my eyes through the downpour of rain, I saw a shadowed shape cautiously moving about ten meters through the driving rain. Then another figure stooped and slowly paraded behind.

My companions froze, crouching down in fear of a paramilitary patrol mistaking us for rebels. I signaled to Cristobal to venture a bit further concealing himself in the foliage. I moved up close behind him as Hornsby and Cassarina stayed back. Many more individuals appeared, trudging along with burdens of satchels on their backs. Some were carrying children. Others with bundles strapped on their backs. All were moving in a remorseful procession. There could have been a hundred or more men, women and children covered in mud, sweat, disease, and torn clothing, pressing forward towards a refugee encampment.

The four of us passed through the campamento de refugiado of scraps of tin and cardboard shelters, plastic tents upheld by tree branches, and some refugees huddled together shivering from exposure. They had been forced to leave their ancestor’s solitary huts and villages to tread the jungle paths of the Peten, descending the rivers and streams in cayucos, passing through death filled suffering of loved ones along the way.

Desperate for self-preservation, they fled their forest homes, the protection of the wilderness, seeking liberation in the inhospitable jungle, migrating as a whole body. Their milpa fields no doubt have been left to rot, the binding symbol that rejuvenated their spirit to their heritage.

Covered in mud and grime, the Iipil and Piik embroidered finery of the Mayan women’s colorful dress was soiled and ragged. The men were equally disheveled, lean and old, glancing curiously at us. Some smoked cigarettes in cupped hands. There were no young men among them.

Some children with swollen bellies played disconcerted in the mud. Younger ones cried piteously and babies in rebosos slung over their starving mother’s shoulders clasped bare wilted breasts hoping to suck a drop of milk.

At times I heard the yelp of a perro callejero roaming about the encampment trying to beg some scrap of food. The whole scene repulsed me. As I glanced around the sea of exhausted and miserable faces, my heart sank. There was no organized sanitation. Feces littered the muddy ground. This was not humanity. Then the shrieks of a woman cut through the driving rainstorm. I ran to see what the matter was.

Cassarina was already by the woman’s side, comforting her when I arrived. The Mayan woman was squatting on a rain soaked mat on the muddy ground. A bare footed elderly man wearing dungaree trousers, a worn and stained cotton shirt and straw hat squatted in front of her, holding her fisted hands.

“She’s in labor,” Cassarina commanded. “I need a shelter.”

Hornsby, Cristobal and I set about making a lean two. Hornsby instinctively took Cristobal’s machete and hacked out a few thick tree stands at about three meters each. In minutes we had erected a poncho-covered tee-pee canopy directly over her. Dripping wet, she reeled in the contractions. At that moment, a figure came hurriedly through the bush.

Ca va?” It was a French woman under the hood of a poncho. I barely caught a glimpse of her face as she bent down to check on the pregnant girl.

Très bien!” Cassarina responded without a flinch. She was in her element. I heard Cassarina ask the woman how many refugees were there.

De 100 à 150 personnes.”

“For chrissakes,” Hornsby remarked, astounded at the number of refugees.

The French woman rose peering at us with rich blue eyes embedded in a lean rounded face. A lock of black hair hung down across her face. She wasn’t much taller than Cristobal. It was obvious she was exhausted with the dark rings under her eyes.

Je Docteur St. Germain. Julie St. Germain. Excusez-moi? My English is not so good.”

Hornsby promptly introduced himself as if at a formal dinner party.

“I am a doctor of anthropology.”

I, in turn, acknowledged her. “I’m Cole, Jules Cole.”

Beneath the tented shelter Cassarina announced herself. “I’m Dr. Cassarina Deakin.”

She continued stroking the back of the young Mayan girl who was heaving with respirations.
“And this is Cristobal, our guide,” Hornsby offered, pointing toward Cristobal who stood not an arms length away from us.

“This Q’eqchi girl,” Dr. St. Germain started to explain, “was raped by soldiers who attacked her village. Atroce.”

“Where are the others? You said they’re about a hundred and fifty.” Cassarina attended to the girl.

“Over here, I can show you. Most of them have come from the Alta Verpaz highland mountain range. We have been on foot for a week or more, avoiding patrols.

“There’s no time now. I need hot water to wash her and bathe the baby,” Cassarina said in a desperate tone. “Is there a fire?”

“Non,” said Dr. St. Germain. “We had a cooking fire but the rain put it out.”

“Are you the only doctor here?” Hornsby inquired.

“We. I was at a village outside of Flores when the military patrols came. That was about three weeks ago. They have been running for their lives. Some didn’t make it. There were rumors of a Peace Corp worker being murdered while under interrogation. Hearing this news, I decided to flee with them, offering what medical treatment I could.”

Dr. St. Germain excused herself, telling Cassarina she had to attend to others with serious wounds. She could see the girl was in experienced hands.

“Best to get on task,” Hornsby said in response to Cassarina’s request for hot water.

The three of us set about rounding up some dry matches from the men and then put together a stone pad in the driest area we could find, which was as muddy as any other area. Over the stone pad we constructed another poncho tee-pee shelter to keep the rain off.

Cristobal gathered some coconuts, shelling them to scrape off the coarse fibers. From this we took a few cigarettes from the old men to add as kindling. I looked about for clusters of dried thin brush while Hornsby cut thin pieces of branches and small sapling trees. Though it was wet, it would dry quick enough to catch fire as long as we kept the coals hot.

In a half hour we had boiling water. It was good timing. The baby came screaming into this world behind a thunderous clap of lightning. Cassarina, smiling, emerged with a tiny baby boy in her arms, closely wrapped in one of her shirts.

In the meantime, we constructed a rainwater collector with our last poncho to store up drinking water. The refugees could put their containers underneath it where we created a small tied opening as a faucet. The other matter was to organize a latrine.

Hornsby told Cristobal to find the chief of the tribe, the bataab. Then, the two of us set about scouting out the perimeter to mark a few areas solely for defecation.

“We’ll need to dig some holes, as best as we can.”

In a moment Cristobal returned to Hornsby and told him the bataab was “estar ocupado.”

“Too busy?” Hornsby exclaimed with rain dripping from his face. “Where is he, I need to have a word with him.”

Cristobal pointed in the direction of the pregnant woman explaining that the bataab was the old man assisting the girl, his granddaughter. The girl’s parents had been killed in their village.

“Grand,” Hornsby said then turned to slush his way through the mud over to where Cassarina, the girl and old man were huddled under the poncho shelter.

“I must get this old man appointed as the warden of his people, the administrator of this bunch or they’ll all perish from e.coli infections.”

Even in the strenuous conditions of our work, Hornsby had become a bit frisky. The challenge made Hornsby robust, taking Cristobal in tow to translate for him. I tended to the fire, keeping the coals burning bright amid the rainy damp air.

The three of them emerged shortly, walking about the area, where Hornsby was animated in explaining about the need for sanitation. The bataab was nodding in agreement dutifully following behind Hornsby. Moment’s later orders were being given to some of the men to dig latrine holes.

Cassarina made up a “jungle soup” concoction as Hornsby and I took turns holding the newborn, tucked safely against our body to keep warm. The girl would fair well enough, but was understandably fatigued from the exertion of childbirth. She rested under our tee-pee shelter. Cassarina fed the soup to the girl, while we ate coconut meat from coconuts that Cristobal had previously foraged for fire starter.

With hints of daylight left, I ventured over to where Dr. St. Germain returned. It was a stone’s throw through the jungle bush from our area. I assumed that these were the worse off, the other fifty. Dr. St. Germain had managed to orchestrate the construction of a makeshift clinic, hastily built of lashed cane walls and a pinnacle thatched roof. There was only a small doorway opening.

As I entered I saw the floor was made of palm leaves, piled up high enough to give some relief from the soggy, muddy ground. Moaning bodies were laid next to each other, in neat rows with little room to walk between them. They were drapped with bloodied bandages of torn clothes dressed upon an array of wounds and open sores. Some had carbuncle sores all over their bodies.
“Impetigo,” Dr. St. Germain said noticing that I was looking with disturbing curiosity. “I have no anti-biotic to stop the blood infection.”

I glanced over to one corner of the hut and saw a colorful handkerchief covering a woman’s face.
“She died an hour ago,” Dr. St. Germain informed me.

An assistant helped Dr. St. Germain, a young Mayan girl passing a cup of water to their lips. Not much else could be done for them but offer comfort and reassurance that they would be rescued at some point.

“You would think America would come with humanitarian aid. But they are more interested in supplying weapons to the Guatemalan army,” the doctor said bitterly.

Dr. St. Germain was kneeling next to an old man who had a wound in his shoulder. She used a coconut shell cut in half to act as a water bowl to clean the wound. I watched as she removed the bloodied bandage to reveal a horrendous maggot infested ulceration of human flesh.

She looked up at me with half-empty eyes from lack of sleep. Her long auburn air, once silky was untidy and muddy. Her face was marked with fresh and dried blood as well as her trousers and blouse. All the things that could break a person’s spirit had accumulated here in this dwelling place of death. My gut twisted in knots from the nausea that over came my senses.

“This is what saving life is about,” she said acknowledging my repulsion. “A la merci de dieu.” Dr. St. Germain was at the Mercy of God, fulfilling the role of the Angel of Mercy.

That evening I rested under the jungle canopy, not far from the fire. Hornsby and Cristobal among the hundred refugees managed to find some makeshift lodging for themselves as the rain continued to drizzle through the night. Cassarina stayed with the young girl and her baby, herself well worn from the toiling events of the day. I had gathered some palm leaves and lashing them together I made an umbrella type canopy for my head. It kept me dry enough, though I was still damp from the rain and chilly air. I stayed opened-eyed and alert tending to the fire from time to time.

Stillness pervaded the night. Other than an occasional crack of the fire coals shooting sparks like fireworks into the misty air, the scheme of a safe universe produced itself with a permanent sober slice of the moon’s phase, momentarily through the cloud cover. The slender shaving of its reflecting light made me wonder if God intended to provide assurance of everlasting security, and we, with our audacious beliefs, screwed it up? All around me was evidence enough. Then, I felt a rush of air behind me, a voice out of the darkness.

“Jules, its me, Cassarina,” I heard her say.

She had wondered out to me, a few meters from her shelter, crossing the encampment in the darkness undetected. She came close to my face with a steady candor, “This isn’t so bad is it?”
“You make a comfortable home,” I replied sarcastically.

The misty rain made the air hang heavy. It muffled our voices. She pressed her lips and lingered for a moment. In a discreet whisper she said she wanted to stay with the refugees. In a way I had expected it. When she returned from visiting Dr. St. Germain, there was edginess in her silence. A deep purring brooding was going on within her psyche. But unlike before at the Lacandon village, she now had a constant tranquil voice, a serene tone reflecting a peace of mind in the most horrible of circumstances.

“I can help Dr. St. Germain with my knowledge of medicinal ethnobotany. It’s our only chance to try and save these people.”

It was a vital point that I couldn’t contradict. She had the wisdom of the necessary things to help conquer their plight.

“But what about Hornsby?” I said with enigmatical emotion. “I don’t think he’ll agree.”

Cassarina turned her head, her green eyes gleamed at the low burning fire I was attending through the night, and in a glance as thoughtful and vulnerable she was frank with me.
“I have something to tell you . . . about James and I.”

It was no longer necessary to keep me ignorant of their secret, but she kept me in suspense for a whole minute, as her face turned gravely sincere.

“What is it?” I finally said. “Are you two . . .”

“Lovers? Hardly.” She gaffed at the thought. “He’s the trustee of my inheritance.”

The truth unfolded before me as Cassarina explained that Hornsby took on the responsibility of raising her after her parents were killed in a plane crash. Her father and Hornsby had met as officers during the war, and upon returning to England they attended Cambridge University. Cassarina’s father was an Earl, with a fairly large family legacy to carry forth in his lifetime. There were no heirs apparent except for Cassarina.

“My father studied psychology. James and him often mingled their disciplines thinking that anthropology and psychology ought to be combined into one science. This is how they became so close.”

Light puffs of white smoke from the fire filter between us like ghostly fingers in a leisurely manner. The charm of her vagueness up till now impressed me as divine and unbounded confidence in keeping the great secret, secret. I started to speak but Cassarina hushed me.
“But there is more,” she continued ominously. “James was disqualified from Cambridge.”
“ I thought he had resigned,” I said, astonished. Cassarina shook her head no.

“The truth of it is James is a bit of a anthropological swashbuckler. His passion for ancient sociology filled the emptiness of not marrying. As I grew up, I learned that he was most happy in his science researches, plunging like a boy into some new pursuit of valorous deeds in uncovering the hidden meaning of life. It is with gratitude that he raised me with a strong sense of justice and passion to redress a wrong. He always stirred me to discuss, analysis and think among the company of a wide spectrum of people who came to our house for dinner and social events.

“James came from a poor family in Australia, who I never met. He seemed to have cut off the past, solely to carry on with the present task of making sure to fulfill his promise to my father. His mastery challenged me every step of the way raising me with the philosophy that men should be men and not hooligans. I grew up expecting the same, as you might have noticed.”

“So,” I interrupted passionately, “ I don’t understand why this has to do with his being disqualified from the university.”

“James wouldn’t give me the liberty to tell you the truth for fear of giving you reason to abandoned him. I kept on him, as you might had seen us talking among ourselves from time to time, to open up, but he continued to be stubborn.”

“Why are you telling me this now?” I asked.

“I’m not going on with you, and…” she drifted off for a moment. The misty rain filled the chilly night air with a fragrance I had not smelled before.

“And what?”

“James was pushed out. It was a conspiracy. First the board of regents sent him threatening letters to stop the nonsense about the Mayan Soul Chamber. Then, he was brought before a review panel to put in question his credibility to continue with his tenure. To keep face and some professional credibility James offered to resign . . . but it was under duress.

“His resignation was immediately accepted. But it didn’t stop there. James continued to write articles about Mayan mythology permeating throughout the consciousness of humankind, which were refused by every publisher in England. That was a first, since he was well published worldwide. I was busy at Oxford at the time with my medical exams, so I didn’t suspect anything straight away.

“When I finally caught wind of the crucifying he was taking from his former loyal colleagues, I intervened. I feared that he would release himself from the circle of the academic code of belief and go madly into a blissful oblivion. So it was my idea for him to make this expedition to escape the organized ostracism of his British peers. I put up the bulk of the funds from my inheritance, along with the generous donations that were made from a few individuals. I felt it was my duty to repay him for taking care of me.”

“It was his fidelity to his own truth that undid him,” I said.

“I knew you would understand.”

“What about Garthwaite?”

“A friend and not someone that James trusts . . . not like you,” Cassarina was quick to answer.
For the first time she looked back into my eyes with the strength of being victorious in convincing me. She displayed a sincere temperament.

“And you?”

“Jules, are you jealous?” Cassarina chuckled slightly.

“No, I just thought your correspondence. . . .”

“Hardly a man that is a man. Unlike you.”

She strung me out like a tightrope walker without a balance pole in that last flattering comment. I swayed for a moment, speechless, trying to keep my balance from of what she was implying. I didn’t dare to continue in this vein and fortunately, she didn’t either.

“Take him to Yaxkin, or at least go look for it. I know this time is precious to him. He doesn’t have anyone else to believe in him, other than me. And I must stay here, I can’t leave these suffering people with a clear conscious.”

“But what about my dream?”

“I don’t know, you’re the expert,” Cassarina said, reassuring me.

There was a confidence in her voice that disposed me not to strenuously object.

“I will need to think about it,” slipped out of my mouth.

I reached into my shirt pocket. From my fingers I produced the orange sign language card I had gotten in San de las Cristobal from the deaf girl. I had stuck it into one of my wallet’s plastic covers, which had kept it relatively intact.

“Here, I want you to take this as a memento, something to . . . keep us connected.”

“Grand. I will keep it forever,” she said giving me a kiss on the check and taking the worn card in her hand.

Her kiss gave me a promise of salvation. Touching the very core of my being, it was the revealing moment that lurks on the edge of our yearning for companionship.

“You’re a brick.” She rose to her feet said, “Bonne nuit!” and headed back to her shelter in the flickering light of the campfire.